Updated: Dec 28, 2022
I believe the topic of imposter syndrome trends more now than ever because, as a collective, we realize our experiences are not that far apart from one another. We're calling out our "flaws" as they are, and there's a name to the face. This has inspired me to tell my story about my introduction to imposter syndrome, and how it silenced me for years.
In my own life, I never really stopped to feel what I felt. More or less, processed it. Honestly, I wasn't encouraged to. What I did know was no matter the accomplishment - during or after - an overwhelming emotion of uncertainty washed over me, and I never knew why. I felt unworthy of "being in the room," per se. My efforts seemed fraudulent. With that, I hid. I did just enough and moved on.
Sadly, this became a pattern well into adulthood.
The amount of imposter syndrome I've battled for years was insurmountable! Confession: feeling like a fraud was what kept me from starting this blog with my friend. When I tell you the self-doubt hit me like a flood. It wore me out!
"Why are you doing this; What are you trying to say?!"
"Just leave it to the kids."
"You've had plenty of time to tell your stories."
"Is this real or am I passing time?"
You may not understand these thoughts, but to me, they were real. I was telling myself anything to get out of sharing who I am - I allowed it to silence me. I felt my time had passed being in the creative space because of age and responsibilities (silly, I know).
Simply put: I was scared to make a move.
I want to be clear: this isn't an article to provide tips on combating imposter syndrome, or even how I "overcame" it. Today, I somewhat struggle with those "fraud" feelings, still. I don't know if I'll ever get over it, lol. However, let this serve as my transparent two cents.
What I want to do is encourage you to stay confident and recognize you are enough. You are valid. And you damn sure belong in the room.